So here is the truth. And maybe I should tell you. But this is me, and if you know me well enough, you know i keep it to myself to stay strong and because I believe in the long term, I know it’ll all be ok.
I get it. Change is a consistent cycle. and I love change. I take all the opportunities it gives you; pretend like there is nothing bad that comes with it.
This time last year a big change occurred which I couldn’t accept for the first time in my life. Just a year on, and I can feel it happening all again. I can feel that pain in my throat and my stomach tightening. With that aside, I have other things in the equation to think about too - uni. work. travelling. amazing boyfriend…
BUT. there is always some one worse off. always someone not as lucky. I say certain things as it helps me cope, not to hurt you. I smile when i feel like crying because I don’t like to waste time being sad, life is too short. I act over the top to block out the troubles. the longer i bottle things up, when i explode im like an uncontrollable hurricane. from the smiles to bottling things up, its all because I’m scared.
Basically, after all my chat, all my actions, all my thoughts… I really have no answers because my life has proved there is no set route year in year out. So I hold my hands up, underneath who I am is all because I’m scared; mostly to loose what I have because of the futures actions I suppose… *to be continued*
I find this inspiring.
”Distance is actually ok. Being apart makes you stronger than other couples. And when your finally together again, you appreciate them. It makes you realize how much you can love one person”
It’s filled of pictures of me and my girls. What’s most remarkable to me, is that this time last year, I knew of them and nothing more than that. This time last year, I was in the darkest of places without anyone to save me. But then my beautiful friend introduced me to the group and finally, I…
My beaut friend who i adore and miss, thank you <3